So, right next to my driver-side rear door, there was a face-up penny. An omen of good luck, right? I think that today hasn't been a bad day, anyway. But I've been battling the ever-present MUNCHIES!! Okay, so I went ahead and brought the little Pringles container (with the peanuts dumped inside there) as a kind of... "well, I need to go grocery shopping, this'll hold me over as a hunger saver until I can get other hunger savers" type of thing. But then I was snacking... pushed it away... reached in for another peanut... sure, I was eating slowly, but I was still EATING WHEN I'M NOT NECESSARILY HUNGRY...
I think sometimes when you adopt a new way of doing things, it makes you REALLY assess what you were doing before... and almost long for what you were doing before, even if you didn't necessarily like it then, and didn't necessarily think that it was a good thing to be doing. I've been drinking my H2Orange... my coffee with milk and Truvia... and I sat down and ate my leftover roast with potatoes... and didn't even get to the carrots, because I presumed myself "full" after the meat and a few of the potatoes....
But I can't get it out of my mind all the things I CAN'T have... why does it have to be that way?? I'll make it through, but it's like any addiction... you have to go through points where you want to be weak. It is my life. I'm able to make the decisions that I want to, whether those decisions are to stick to the plan, or to deviate.
I think I need to breathe, drink some H2Orange, and occupy my mind with other things.
And get these munchies away from me!
xo
Mrs. Scurtu
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